Would ANYBODY believe it if I said that I slept @ 9:30pm lastnight?! ...lol, well, I did! =) Surprising... but I'm glad I got some sleep. I have panda eyes, and I look like I'm dying =(. Friday was supposed to be the best day of the week... but this Friday, somehow, I felt like there were two worlds in which I was in between (this may sound like, a JK student's thoughts... but this was how I felt). Once in a while, I felt like I was in a world full of sadness... like as if I was in reality. The other world was, of course, a fantasy world. Everything was like a dream... like, as if it couldn't have ever happened in real life! My day was "bitter and sweet". I felt confusion and pain all at once. I'm loosing the vocabs here, and I can't seem to describe how I feel. It's at the tip of my tongue, but I can't seem to express it. At school, NOTHING seemed to matter to me... I don't even know what I can say about my day at school! I had the normal boring classes... and skipped art. (I had to. I needed to stay out of that class... because I felt really sick!) When I came home, nobody was home, but me. Everything seemed to be so quiet... I felt calm and peaceful. After a while, I had to choose between cantonese school or ikea. Since @ canto, we were going to party... I decided to go to ikea. I saw Claudia there, which made me really happy =) (that girl always makes my day =)) and then, somehow... getting in trouble felt... weird. got me kinda upset... but I was happy I got corrected in a way. What pissed me off the MOST... was the cadets always talking back at me! I wasn't tryna be a 'perra'... but I had no choice! That's what the other NCOs expected from me.. that's what I HAD to do! >< People talked back... and some even said they didn't need to respect us -_-" ... I was REALLY fustrated. After a while, many recruits left. Mostly NCOs stayed... that's when I got to breathe and chillax. Juhi was there for me that night. I felt so down and she was there to comfort me (so thank you, Juhi.). We had our fun times tonight and I really appreciated it =) ...as for Xavier, you said that I'd talk to you again... well, you thought wrong! this isn't the first time too! ><" w/e. don't care anymore. I don't like Joe. I really don't. If I have to make that clear ONE MORE TIME! -__- Today, I felt like crying... and I also felt like smiling =). ---- Sigh... everytime I think about it.... I feel confusion and pain. =( If only a fantasy world for humans exsisted... I would stay there, and dream for the rest of my life. I no longer wanna deal with sadness, confusion, or pain. Sigh. =( I feel like crying. ---- My bitter and sweet day ended like this. | 
